Life lesson: Don't always trust your mind.

I know it sounds bizarre, but I really believe in this. Sometimes things appear a certain way, when they are anything but. For example, just say someone yawns when you are talking to them and automatically think they think your boring. But did you ever think they could just be tired? See what I mean? There have been so many countless times when I have done things like this and it's like a little stab each time, because the unfortunate truth is... our brains are so use to negativity. We get tidal waves of negativity each day, just from TV and sometimes from people. So no wonder we pay more attention to negative detail. Sometimes it actually takes strength of the mind to replace it with positive, to step out of that box. If we let negativity surround us, it follows us. So punch it in the face and tell it to get lost, because we don't want it hanging around.

Beanies and slippers

At some stage, these are some things I want to do:

- Join a book club - I love to read :) and being in a book club would give me the opporunity to find out about books which I may have otherwise never found. And then get to discuss them with other people! Which is something I love to do, but don't always get to since often people haven't read the book or aren't interested.

- Learn to play the piano/guitar - I have never learnt an instrument before, but would love to! I have always wanted to learn the piano and I am very interested in learning to play the guitar :) I think I'd like acoustic best.

- Go on a holiday- Well yes, I have been on holidays before. But a holiday with just Caleb/friends or even by myself.

- Volunteer at Paradise Kids/Night riders - I think volunteering in a organisation like those would be really fulfilling for me. Helping someone :) but also learning and gaining experience. I believe being exposed to new experiences are great opportunities to learn and grow.

- Save up and buy a laptop - ASAP

- Go to a high tea - I have always been intrigued by them and they seem pretty fancy :)

- Eventually move out - ;)

- Find a reliable part time job - ASAP

- Go hiking - To be honest, I don't know what it is that exactly intrigues me about hiking but I think it's just being out and away from everything. Just in nature :) it's nice to get away sometimes.

:)

Well I have an action plan now at least :)

I watched a video on youtube the other day about the media and TV shows and they have such a big impact on people. They make us question our own values and plant these idea's into our minds about what specific gender roles are etc. And it's so true. I just don't want to watch TV anymore. I'm sick of questioning some of the things I believe, things that I use to believe so strongly in. And I'm not saying its not good to question what you believe because sometimes that's a good thing. But I think more so when you question it in a positive way, to better it. The ways it has made me question mine... the only way I can think of to explain it, is negative questioning.

I guess its all in learning and growing. Deciding where I stand on different subjects, but it makes it harder deciding where I stand when I get such mixed signals from everyone/everything.

I just feel like going to some remote place, by myself with no people anywhere. So I can be alone and just decide everything, figure everything out. And I know that all wouldn't happen at that one time, but to at least give me a starting point. With absolutely no influences, so I can make my decisions and for them to be mine alone. I know I could do it where I am now, but it would probably just be much easier being in some secluded beautiful location :P

Even though I will continue to question and grow once I have decided these things, at least I will have my bases so I can know I am stepping on firm ground instead of in some kind of quick sand. Because especially being a psychologist you need to be willing to have your personal beliefs questioned, to step out of the comfort zone and be open to other opinions. But never stop questioning... just because someone says something does not mean they are right. Don't accept something someone says if it doesn't sit right with you, always question. Only accept when you too believe it wholeheartedly, but still allow it to be questioned. I don't want to let myself believe everything is concrete, I want to just be open. Go with the flow bro haha! I want to help people and I want to help them find their feet. I want to help people find happiness. I know I can't do it for them but I want to support them in their findings. Be a positive encouragement for them. I want to help change people's lives for the better, even if its in the smallest way.

Arts and Crafts

I am currently getting together the things I need to make a card for my friend. Who's birthday is tomorrow :) the present is all wrapped just have the card left to do! Trying to plan out how I will do it in my mind. I know it will include a fair bit of purple since that is her favourite colour, just like mine. I really enjoy making things, just like I enjoy writing and drawing. I'm going to get started!

Dawn

You know how sometimes you consider something, just because you can think of one good reason. But really deep down you know that's not what you want. So why do it? You'll probably feel sillier for it later and possibly regret it. If its not you, turn around and walk away.

To build a home.

This song gives me goosebumps.

why...

I don't know why, but I wish I did. Maybe there is more to it, than what I understand.