Family

What does family mean to you? To me it's the people who you should know will be there for you, no matter what happens. Their the one's who catch you and put you back on your feet when no one else does. The people who love you and support you regardless of anything else.

I can say these things are true of most of my family. Except my dad, and that makes me really sad. But my father has some very interesting views on the world, views which I can't agree with. I respect his views though, since I believe each to their own... but he won't show the same courtesy for me. Along with his constant expectations, and when you don't live up to his expectations... you know about it. I have never been good at talking to my dad, for a number of reasons. I am still polite and never rude when I speak to him, but I don't feel like I will ever be able to be close with him. Lately he's said some things which really hurt me, things that a person can't just get over. I don't want things to be this way and I have always tried to keep things good between us. But I think you just get to a point when they have just hurt you to many times, that you give up.

I've been trying for 19 years, and yesterday I finally gave up. Maybe things will get better a few years from now, but for now I'm done trying.

Relax

I am currently sipping some Camomile, Honey and Vanilla tea while listening to Come Undone by Vanessa Carlton. Relaxing indeed :)

University has been going good! University has taught me so many things, and allowed lots and lots of personal growth. Which I am very grateful for! Because if there is an opportunity to grow I believe it should be taken. Since there is always room for more personal growth and allowing further understanding of ourselves and the world around us.

With time.

Missed my train to go to uni today, was pretty bummed about it. But I am going tomorrow :) and both my tutors are awesome so that's always a plus :).

My skin has been horrid lately, I just wish it would calm down. I really need to get some new skincare products! But I really don't have the money to do that yet, ohh well. With time good things come!

Piano

Giovanni Boldini, La Femme En Rouge

This picture is so stunning, I still want to learn the piano!

Image by Masaaki Sasamoto

"Strength of character means the ability to overcome resentment against others, to hide hurt feelings, and to forgive quickly." - Unknown

Agreed.

People who have touched their lives

"Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives."

It didn't say who wrote this quote, but I really did love it. Although pain is horrible, any kind of pain is. But I know through pain we learn, that's how we learn not to touch the hot stove when we're 4 because we burnt our hand on it. It teaches us, the hard way. But if it tried teaching us the easy way wouldn't we keep making the same mistake because we feel there is no consequence? Whether is be emotional or physical pain, because without feeling any kind of consequence we'd have many more broken legs and people giving away they hearts to whoever made them feel special regardless of the fact they continuously cheated (those are just some random examples). I think it's the same with emotional pain, we learn from past hurts and how to avoid them in the future. Or how to better deal with situations and to be able to hold onto our self respect.

Life lesson: Don't always trust your mind.

I know it sounds bizarre, but I really believe in this. Sometimes things appear a certain way, when they are anything but. For example, just say someone yawns when you are talking to them and automatically think they think your boring. But did you ever think they could just be tired? See what I mean? There have been so many countless times when I have done things like this and it's like a little stab each time, because the unfortunate truth is... our brains are so use to negativity. We get tidal waves of negativity each day, just from TV and sometimes from people. So no wonder we pay more attention to negative detail. Sometimes it actually takes strength of the mind to replace it with positive, to step out of that box. If we let negativity surround us, it follows us. So punch it in the face and tell it to get lost, because we don't want it hanging around.