Weekends

Caleb will be coming to stay towards the end of April! His flights and everything have been booked, I'm really excited for the holidays now :). I'm also having a girls night with the ladies tomorrow night which will be fun :) We're going to do some sing-star like old times, eat lots of lollies, have a nice dinner with wine and of coarse talk lots and catch up on everything! I miss being at school and seeing them each day, that's pretty much the only thing I miss from school though. But we still catch up whenever we can and there will be plenty of exciting things happening in the future. It still seems so surreal to me, everyone moving out and getting apartments. It's the next phase of our lives I guess and it's exciting.

I need to do some study tomorrow and need to do some job searching. Not looking for anything to full on, just some part time work for a bit of extra money. My main focus for now is university.

Fulfillment.

I finally feel on track again and I'm not going to let it sway off in some unknown direction this time. That's happened to many times and I really feel like I need direction and to feel content with where I am going with my life. I have realized now how important that is to me. I want to be achieving things and moving in the direction I need to be going in to reach my goals. I think we all need that to a certain extent, self fulfillment. I guess it gives you a sense of accomplishment, which is always nice :). I think I will aim to get an A on this exam... that would make me happy beyond words! I just need to really focus and work on it. I want this all so badly, I just need to push myself into making it happen. No slacking off! I know I can do this.

Believe.

I have always believed in self love and how empowering it can be. If you believe you are capable of something and you don't let other people define you, then there isn't anything you can't do. It's when you decide to push through the mold in which society has created of what makes you successful. Who wants to have to live up to the expectations of other people? Your expectations are the only ones you need to focus on, the goals you want to achieve. You are a person, your own person. Your have the ability to do anything you set your mind to. In a world so full of negative influences, nasty people and just unfortunate circumstances the person you need to always be on your side is you. Nobody can love you like you can, the only person you can be sure isn't going to disappear on you is you and neither will god of coarse. It's ok to make mistakes and it's ok to be down sometimes. It's ok to let yourself feel your emotions and it's ok to cry once in a while.

Butterflies

I still get butterflies when I see you

I've always loved pokemon :D

T2

So things are going rather well, things which were creating a fair bit of stress have now died down - thankfully! So yes, just positive outlook from now on! Although I always try to be positive in even the troublesome situations. It just helps I think :) and it makes things more enjoyable. For me anyway.

Just made myself some Buddha's Tears, which is a white tea. It's a very relaxing tea with a lovely but not overpowering fragrance. They are actually small flowers and when you put the hot water in and leave it for a couple minutes the flowers open up and it's ready to drink :). I love tea, so much variety. You couldn't possibly become bored of it! And it's so enjoyable, we found this tea shop called T2 and my golly! It smells SO good in there, and the tea's we tried were just amazing. I want to go there and buy some. But I think I'll have to wait until I have more money, I don't even feel like I have the room for small luxuries at the moment but at least I can enjoy the small luxuries I already own :)