Better days

Caleb left today, been feeling kind of empty since. I feel with every time I see him we grow within our relationship a bit more. Even though I think we are very strongly grounded already and know a lot about one another, but slowly finding out little things about each other, that we may not have known before. Things we couldn't have known when we hadn't met each other yet. Like the spots which are most ticklish, the kind of kiss or hug they favor most. I feel so comfortable with him now and that feels really nice :) to feel like there is nothing you need to worry about because it doesn't matter.

I've always felt content and loved so much, cared for and wanted. The way I think love should feel, he's there for me when I'm feeling down and he always supports me. I feel so amazingly lucky to have him. The distance doesn't seem so much of a big deal to me anymore, because I have come to accept it. I would never give him up for anything. Distance could never change how much I love him, nothing could. We've endured the tests of time along with many others, and its all only brought us closer together. I know whatever the future holds; we'll be able to overcome it. We were young when we met and still are, but who says young love can't last? Because I believe it can, age does not determine your capability to love someone unconditionally.

White roses

Painting by: Henry Meynell Rheam - Sleeping Beauty

His painting are so beautiful!!

I wish you would listen to what I am trying to tell you.

Shoobidy-doo

There is a beer in the fridge. Now I'm not usually a fan of beer, or any other alcohol for that matter. I don't mind a glass of wine every now and then (if it is one of the rare ones I actually like that is) haha! Mum says most wine is quite an acquired taste, that I may not get until I am older. And cocktails can be nice too. I have never been drunk though, and I don't really plan on it. It's not that I think drinking is bad, not close. I think there is nothing wrong with it and if people enjoy getting drunk then who's to judge? I just hope they are being safe of coarse :) haha! But I just have never personally felt like I wanted to get drunk, I have fun being sober and I prefer it that way. And I like being in control of what I am doing. Anyways! That damn beer in the fridge, it's like it's talking to me "Drink me please! I've been sitting here for way to long!" But why do I feel like drinking it when I don't even really like the taste? Although we do have this stuff which you can add to beer to make it taste like ginger beer, but then that completely ruins the purpose of drinking beer. May as well just go out and buy some ginger beer, which really I would prefer. But unfortunately we do not have any ginger beer at the moment and damn now I really feel like it!

Moments of pleasure

Thankful

Did my exam yesterday! I think I did alright, waiting for the results to be posted. I was so tired when I sat the exam though, I had hardly any sleep the night before since I was stressing about the exam. But that night I had a bath, played music (Kate Bush! Music from her "The Red Shoes" Album, which is superb! Very relaxing, it's like it just takes you to another place), lit some candles, and I can not express my love for candles enough! Also lit a Musk incense stick, which smelt so good. Was pure bliss, honestly. So relaxing :) I think I need to do that more often! But I just wish our bath was different to the one we have since ours isn't very big. I have always dreamed of having one of those baths which aren't attached to the wall and are really really deep. I am definitely going to be getting one of those when I get my own house :). This week has been so full on, but at the same time fulfilling for me. I'm really happy with where I am now, and that feels good. I can't wait until I can finally sleep in tomorrow morning and just lay in bed as long as I want knowing there are no responsibilities I must deal with that day. I haven't been able to sleep in once this week! Thank goodness for weekends is all I have to say :P

Inspiration

I don't know why this is, but unless I am feeling some sort of emotion I find it difficult to write (creative writing). I really enjoy writing poems, but it is rare that I can just whip one out without having to feel something emotionally first. The only poem I have ever been able to do that with is "Open your eyes." I literally wrote it in 5 minuets, but I haven't been able to do that with any other. I need time to think about it first, to have some kind of emotion feeding my thoughts. Usually to get myself into this zone, I listen to music.

Exam on Thursday, which I have been practically studying all day for -sigh. But it's 11:20pm now, so I should probably stop and go for a shower and get some sleep so I am able to constructively study again tomorrow. Then once the exam is over I need to focus on the assignment. But I do feel in a good place at the moment as far as university goes so that is a positive.

At least the exam is all multiple-choice ;)