"You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection"
-Buddah

So today I was thinking about body image and self confidence. I know everyone at some stage in their life has been self conscious. One thing I think is so horrible, is that girls and guys these days are becoming self conscious younger and younger and that's scary. I remember when I was little, my biggest worry was whether it was going to rain today and I wouldn't get to play outside. And when you think about all the media and the portrayal of what is "beautiful" there is really no wonder why. I have decided I just want to not read fashion magazines anymore, just because they portray an unrealistic idea of what beauty is and practically try to con you into buying something you don't really need, by trying to find your insecurities and try to convince you this product is your answer. When most of the time you buy it and turn out extremely disappointed. And it's like if your not like size 6, you just don't cut it apparently? Well what bull-poop if you ask me. I know girls who are of all different sizes and their all gorgeous. Yeah, girls in magazines probably all have perfect legs, no cellulite, and amazing clear skin. Although, a lot of the time they are photo-shopped. But in reality all you need to do is look around you to see the variety of people there are. We're all unique, we each have different features, body shapes, hair colours, etc.

I think acceptance is the key, and not comparing ourselves to everyone else. We should love and look after our bodies, because well its the only one we have.

Be kind to yourself and remember your beautiful :)

Weekends

Caleb will be coming to stay towards the end of April! His flights and everything have been booked, I'm really excited for the holidays now :). I'm also having a girls night with the ladies tomorrow night which will be fun :) We're going to do some sing-star like old times, eat lots of lollies, have a nice dinner with wine and of coarse talk lots and catch up on everything! I miss being at school and seeing them each day, that's pretty much the only thing I miss from school though. But we still catch up whenever we can and there will be plenty of exciting things happening in the future. It still seems so surreal to me, everyone moving out and getting apartments. It's the next phase of our lives I guess and it's exciting.

I need to do some study tomorrow and need to do some job searching. Not looking for anything to full on, just some part time work for a bit of extra money. My main focus for now is university.

Fulfillment.

I finally feel on track again and I'm not going to let it sway off in some unknown direction this time. That's happened to many times and I really feel like I need direction and to feel content with where I am going with my life. I have realized now how important that is to me. I want to be achieving things and moving in the direction I need to be going in to reach my goals. I think we all need that to a certain extent, self fulfillment. I guess it gives you a sense of accomplishment, which is always nice :). I think I will aim to get an A on this exam... that would make me happy beyond words! I just need to really focus and work on it. I want this all so badly, I just need to push myself into making it happen. No slacking off! I know I can do this.

Believe.

I have always believed in self love and how empowering it can be. If you believe you are capable of something and you don't let other people define you, then there isn't anything you can't do. It's when you decide to push through the mold in which society has created of what makes you successful. Who wants to have to live up to the expectations of other people? Your expectations are the only ones you need to focus on, the goals you want to achieve. You are a person, your own person. Your have the ability to do anything you set your mind to. In a world so full of negative influences, nasty people and just unfortunate circumstances the person you need to always be on your side is you. Nobody can love you like you can, the only person you can be sure isn't going to disappear on you is you and neither will god of coarse. It's ok to make mistakes and it's ok to be down sometimes. It's ok to let yourself feel your emotions and it's ok to cry once in a while.

Butterflies

I still get butterflies when I see you

I've always loved pokemon :D